JacobSpades

I cried until my eyes dried out and the world became black. I bled until my heart stopped beating and my skin went cold. I loathed until my soul collapsed and my mind grew dark. This was when my demons handed me a mask of the face I used to wear and whispered Go on. Life can't hurt you anymore.

I don't know how many wicked caves and wretched dungeons how many fearsome beasts and ferral monsters you had to face before you found me Yet I beg you do not open my chest For if you do hidden teeth and tendrils will shred your hoping heart

My burried lair a darkened spire A somber slumber on my eyes Like a moth to dancing fire It drags you to my lips of ice My skin is silk yet it is cold My wings are steel though beautiful My fingers claws though yours to hold My touch will drain yet make you whole My core is dark machinery Give your blood as fuel divine Forlorn darling, hear with glee Today I'll be your Valentine

Born a failure The first war the war of genes lost from the start Expelled and shunned taunted and disgraced Yet you kept your spirit and did your duty Made a hero The last war the war of brotherhood won in the end Bred for war heart and soul You stood with your brothers and saved their future Lived as a failure Died as a hero If valor would measure on a two digit scale you truly are a 99

All my condescending words and the arrogant attitude I display are dearly shunned by you Yet whenever you sigh and turn your back on me while rolling your eyes I smile to myself For all the obnoxious presumptuousness is nothing but a prison wall to deliver you from all the horror I carry inside

I am a monster My skin is scarred and scorched shattered are my bones and time has torn away my face I am a demon My mind ist dark and twisted atrocity my trusty mate and despair lies in my very breath I am innocent You cannot blame me It's not my fault For I am only the person you see behind your mirror's glass

I am calm and full of compassion I wouldn't hurt you or cause you any harm But sometimes when the basses of industrial machinery pound in my head and a veil of redness covers my green eyes I dream of more violence than you could ever comprehend

My blind blindfolded eyes watch helplessly brightness turn to blackness as you push me back into the dark In the world where wrong has won I dress in familiar shadows yet again It may be hurtful and yes it sucks me dry but it is the only comfort and protection that I can offer to my frostbitten heart

You keep me locked up in the darkness of your twisted fantasies You put a barbed chain around my wrists and made cold iron clench my neck Your nails dig under my skin Your venom courses through my veins Your words inhabit my aching head Night for night you come to hurt me to taste my fears to embrace my agony Sometimes when sparkling fury gets a hold of my broken eyes I rise and raise my fists against your wicked body But you just smile at me and with a lustful shiver you offer me your distorted face "Beat me! Beat me hard and never stop!" Once again I crumble down And as the familiar chuckling echos through my mind I ask myself how I sho

Gracious Lord I beg you please Give me back my childish dreams Take away the nightmare's dread Deliver me from all the pain The darkness haunts me late in bed Night by night it's all the same Oh dearest life just tell my why The mighty god is but a lie Tell me why all hopes will crash Is there a meaning after all? We strive for fame and bliss and cash Yet in the end we'll lose this brawl There's no one left to answer me This silence is atrocity I've used me up in all this shit I can't go on; I've lost my vow Extiguished is the fire lit My sweet love death please take me now